The other day, a customer who I’ve known for a few years now asked me a simple question. He said,
“You seem like you want to do more than just this.”
It was Sunday, I was doing my usual bartending shift. A shift I only took because at the time it was a day Mark worked, and I wanted to get to know him better, so I figured “I’ll take it and spend time with him.” Now, it’s the one shift I would love to trade because it currently takes away time together. You know, because he works a normal job, and I do not. However, I can’t trade it because I built a pretty decent Sunday business for myself and have too many regulars.
Ah, I love catch-22s.
Anyway, in that moment, he was right. I do want to do something more than bartend. And, most days I am doing something more than tending bar. (figured I should add a little variety there)
But, if I had inherited a million dollars, or, won the lottery, or, if this blog or Audrey and the Extraordinary Camera found amazing success, would I still be doing what I am currently doing?
Probably not, or, at least not in the same context.
I would buy a beautiful, but relatively tiny, house on a lot of land, and travel. I would write, and start a photography studio. I always dreamed of owning my own restaurant- a small, twenty seater, where I could have my own photography gracing the walls. Where we could have freedom to do different recipes every week. And, while I would check on that restaurant all the time, I wouldn’t be there all the time.
I would travel; not just the world, but, I would spend the most time exploring our own country. Visit all of the states, road trip with the one I love. I would still work, but, I would have the freedom to do more without having to worry about meeting deadlines, or, you know, being able to afford living.
When we are younger, we draw up a bucket list. We dream of who we will be, what we will look like, where we will end up. Then, we grow up and we don’t think of a bucket list again until we retire. Until we realize that we are in the fourth quarter of life.
But, what if we didn’t wait that long between dreams? What if we had an adult bucket list?
Where we keep our dreams right in front of us, and find a way to survive, and follow our dreams?
The millennial dream. That’s what we are searching for. That balance where we can live, but, we can also afford it.
I thought of all of this before answering his question. I allowed him to ramble a little more before he re-visited his question. And, when I was ready, I answered very simply:
“This year alone, I have published a book, I have built a really strong catering business, I have planned a beautiful engagement party, and am planning a beautiful wedding, with only one breakdown. Last week, I crossed a new state off of my bucket list, and was able to see another part of our country, while attending my favorite bands concert. So, while I don’t currently like standing here behind this bar, and while I’m currently thinking about the three cakes I have to order for next weekend, I think I’m exactly where I need to be.”
I am just a girl snuggling her dog writing on her laptop. A girl so happy to be where she is.