It’s been a beautiful minute since I lasted posted on here. I considered skipping over this part of the paragraph – ya know, the part where I sit here and attempt to glaze over my pure negligence, but this time around, I thought “why not just give a glimpse into my world a little bit more?” Life lately has been a whirlwind and it’s only fair to discuss it, rather than sweep it under the rug.
This last month has been the first time in a very long time where I have felt stuck. Constrained. In my own thoughts, in my own creativity, and, frankly, in my professional and personal life. We have all been there. It’s as if an invisible straight jacket has been fastened on you and there’s just no escape. You’re not excelling at anything in particular, you’re stretched far too thin, and you just sort of miss the routine of the life you had before the straight jacket was fastened on. Your brain runs a mile a minute, but, never at the right moment. You need something to settle so you can move forward and the anticipation of resolution causes you to be more anxious.
The truth is, we have all been there- I just happened to be there for the last four weeks.
June, as it is, tends to always been a chaotic mess. Graduations, school ending, busy season coming to a tail end, anticipation for the summer, weddings, baptisms- it’s all crammed in there. This last month, Mark and I had a bachelor/bachelorette party on separate weekends, a baptism, his concerts, planning of a bridal shower, work, and the true cause of all our stress- we are in the process of buying a house.
Yes, that is the personal stress we both have been carrying. Fortunately, we are coming to the end of the process. Whether we get the mortgage or not (it’s a lot being at the mercy of strangers who methodically go through a check list), we at least will have an answer soon. Either, we’re moving into this house that we fell in love with, or we’re moving into a different apartment (and, then going on a VERY long and VERY expensive vacation because honestly, we fucking deserve it after all of this stress). For us, we just need to know which way we’re going so we can regain a semblance of normalcy.
The best part of this month has been being able to participate in so many wonderful life moments. Old friendships, rekindled, current friendships strengthened, and quite frankly, a renewed sense of strength as a couple because we have handled this stress like champions, and have gotten over every hurdle together. Being a couple isn’t always easy, and anyone who sits there and says their relationship is rainbows and butterflies 24/7 is an untrustworthy liar. (JUST SAYING!) However, when you and your significant other can overcome obstacles together, and can talk anything out without name calling or judgement, I’d say your foundation is strong.
So, since my favorite thing in the world to do is take photos, here are a few photos from our month (in no particular order)
Beebs got married. Ugh, I’m so happy for her. While our friendship had certainly been tested, forgiveness is a beautiful thing and all I can really say is that I am so glad I was there for her wedding day, and not waiting on social media to see pictures.
Speaking of pictures, I was also so glad I was able to set up this photo booth for her
I also was able to photograph a friends band which was fun, but, it also taught me that it might be time to upgrade my camera for better lowlight photos.
I spent so many days with friends, too. And, it’s really those moments that kept Mark and I sane.They light up my heart, these people.
And, finally… I’m invisalign free! What a long, annoying process, but, it was worth it.
Now that we’re all caught up, maybe this time around we can stay consistent. 384757 times the charm, right?